10 things people with anxiety will understand!

Ok so I'm sure you all know by now that I suffer with anxiety so I thought I would write a post about things that anxiety sufferers go through and hopefully you will relate and get what I'm talking about!

It makes me feel a bit better when I know that I'm not crazy and there are other people going through the same things as me and I am not alone ♥

1. Most of the things you worry about are silly, irrational and things that you really don't need to worry about, and you know that but you just can't stop yourself from worrying about it and getting anxious about it!

2. You feel so guilty for being anxious and having panic attacks and feel so bad that you have to cancel plans or feel like you are letting people down because of it, even though you shouldn't feel guilty because it isn't your fault

3. You feel like people just think you are moaning when you talk about it all the time

4. When people tell you to stop worrying and stop being silly/stupid that just pisses you off and makes you even more anxious because you know you shouldn't be anxious but you cant help it! And now you just feel like people are getting annoyed at you

5. When you pay for something in the shop you have to count your money 50 frickin' times to make sure you have the right amount even though you have spent the last 10 minutes double, triple, quadruple (you get the point) checking!

6. You really want to go out and socialize and do normal things like go to pubs/ clubs but just the thought of doing that gives you serious anxiety

7. It makes you soooo angry when people tell you you are using anxiety as an excuse, or you are fine, or just get over it its not a big deal, just do it, just don't worry about it, stop being stupid, your just lazy,
When people say these things it makes me furious!

8. People always say to you, oh you done that the other day and you was fine so why cant you do it today? you're just making it up! 

No!! Our anxiety changes all the time and it can happen whenever just because I done something the other day doesn't mean I should be able to do it all the time. Sometimes we can deal with our anxiety but some days it just takes over and there's nothing we can do about it. We are not making it up.

10. Trying to make a decision about anything is literally impossible because we cant make up our minds and we don't want to make the wrong decision! Whether its choosing what drink to buy or where you want to go to eat your lunch!

Anxiety sucks but there are ways to try to cope with it and you just need to remember that you are not alone and if you feel like you have no one to talk to I am always here for you! And don't ever ever give up things WILL get better, and I like to believe that everything happens for a reason and things will turn out ok ♥



I love you all
I hope you have an amazing day!


Love Megan xx

Depression, Anxiety and Weight loss!

Ok so I'm going to be doing a bit of a life update today, I enjoy doing these because it's like my own little diary but a diary that other people can read and comment on ☺

So my anxiety and depression has been really bad and it honestly affects so much of my life! I hate it. I saw these words on Facebook and it literally describes my life

Well my doctor gave me a counselors number like last year and I wasn't brave enough to ring it and I was too anxious until a couple of weeks ago I finally just said what the heck and rung the number. My depression and anxiety has been so terribly bad and I am not going to go into too many details but I have just been at a really low point so I really felt like I needed help so I rung the counselor.


They referred me or whatever and I had my first meeting on Tuesday 24th. I was quite nervous because it was a group meeting, I didn't want a group meeting I wanted a 1 to 1 where I can just talk to someone about my problems and they can really listen to me and give me advice, because in the group session I am just going to be like a number to them and they are not going to know my personal problems and they are just going to do presentations and give out handouts so I don't see how that will help with my severe mental problems, but I'm trying to remain positive and have faith because I really need something to help me try to cope with my issues.

If you want to know how my meeting went then I talk about it in my new get ready with me video on YouTube, that will be going up next Tuesday. Because I don't want to bore you and write it all down now because this blog post will turn into like a super looong essay and no one will read it!

I'm still on the job hunt and that adds to my depression because I'm stuck at home everyday with nothing to do because I don't have a job so I don't get out my house and then I have absolutely no money to do anything which depresses you even more

All that aside I'm still trying my hardest to remain positive and not give up. Blogging and YouTube has really helped distract me and give me something to do and focus on I love it so much ♥

And reading comments from such lovely people on both my blog and YouTube honestly makes my day because I don't often get nice comments said to me in my personal life so to hear such nice things from people on the Internet that I haven't even met really makes me happy ☺

Another thing I've been doing recently is exercising alot and I am working so hard on losing weight because I weighed myself recently and I weigh alot more than what I thought, obviously I'm not going to say how much I weigh but maybe one day when I have lost alot of weight I can say how much I weighed and compare it and do like a weight loss transformation!



I am happy with my body and don't hate myself like I use to (if you read my love yourself post you will know what I mean) I'm happy and content with myself and my body the only reason I want to lose weight is so I can be fitter and healthier because at the minute I am unhealthy and over weight and obviously if something is affecting my health in a negative way then I want to change that:)



So I have been eating much healthier and exercising 3 or 4 times a week and just trying to be more active, I weighed myself about a month ago so I think I might weigh myself again in a few days so I am hoping I have lost a little bit of weight even if its just a pound or 2 then I will be happy, so wish me luck ☺



UPDATE: I weighed myself on Monday and I lost 8lbs!! I was soo happy! I was so scared to weigh myself because I thought I wasn't going to lose any weight and all that hard work would be for nothing but I actually lost over half a stone in a month! I was so proud and happy :D
Now I just need to keep working hard to lose more weight until I am alot more fit and healthy :)

I hope you didn't mind this more of a personal post I just like to vent and talk about things because I don't often talk about these things to people in my real life so its nice to have somewhere where I can be myself and chat to other people possibly in the same situation!

So thankyou so much for reading I hope you have an amazing day!

Remember to always stay positive no matter what!

Love you all :)

Love Megan Rose ♥

Love yourself! ♥

Hello again lovelies!! ♥

Ok so this is a bit more of a deep and personal post, and I have been quite nervous to post it, but I hope it inspires and helps atleast one of you! Just remember you are beautiful, incredible and amazing and never ever ever forget that!

Anxiety Sucks!

This post may not interest everybody but I am hoping that people with anxiety or people who know somebody with anxiety can read this and get more of an understanding or get some sort of help out of this
Anxiety is a very serious mental illness that so many people suffer with, yet it gets overlooked so easily because it is not a visible illness. About a quarter of the population will experience some kind of mental health problem in the course of a year.

I have been suffering with sever anxiety since the age of about 13, for every single person anxiety is different, majority of people feel anxious at serious and scary times in their life, however people that suffer with anxiety are anxious constantly and usually for no reason. I can't really talk about how anxiety is for everyone i can only talk about my experience.