Love yourself! ♥

Hello again lovelies!! ♥

Ok so this is a bit more of a deep and personal post, and I have been quite nervous to post it, but I hope it inspires and helps atleast one of you! Just remember you are beautiful, incredible and amazing and never ever ever forget that!


So for as long as I can remember I have been shy and insecure about the way I look, well, insecure is an understatement. Throughout most of my life I hated the way I look and wanted to change myself so bad, and I would be so jealous of all these beautiful celebrities with their perfect hair, their perfect bodies, their perfect face, and just their perfect everything really.



It even got to the point that I hated myself so much that I would self harm because of it, and felt the need to punish myself for the way I look for some reason, I have always dreamed of being someone else and looking like someone else, and I started to get to the point where I was hating other pretty women just because I was so jealous of them because I hated the way I looked so much. And I was becoming a bitter, jealous and hateful person, which I hated because that is not me, I have always been a friendly, loving and caring person but my insecurities started to change that.




I would always wear baggy clothes and long sleeve tops or cardigans to cover myself up and alot of the time I wouldn't even want to leave the house, so I would miss school, or college or work and it would effect my education because I just felt so fat and ugly and too insecure to leave the house, and it really puts you down and makes you feel so low and depressed and I was self harming myself over the way I look because of how society and the media made me feel, i felt worthless and disgusting and I felt like I was nothing compared to all these amazing looking models, celebrities and porn stars.



Until recently, I dont know what it was but I just started to love myself. I don't think I just woke up one morning and said, you know what? I love myself!!
I think it was more of a gradual thing. As I got older I just thought what is the point in wasting my life being sad and depressed and insecure about the way I look and cutting myself and punishing myself just because I weigh more than these people in the media. I wasted so many years of my life worrying about it and crying over the way I look and I now have so many scars that are forever going to be on my body all because I felt like I wasn't good enough and because I looked different I felt that meant i should be punished! But that is bullshit! (sorry for my language)



Everyone in this world looks different no one looks exactly the same, everybody has flaws and insecurities and that is what makes us unique and individuals.
I have now just learned to love myself and accept myself the way I am, this is my body and the only body I am going to have throughout my life. Life is going to throw some horrible shit at you and people will hurt you and put you down but as long as you love yourself that is all that matters. I look at my scars every day and feel so sorry for myself that I harmed my body and it makes me so hurt and upset that I done that to myself just because maybe i got some horrible comments off of horrible worthless people.



I love myself and you should not be afraid to say that. Yeh i still wake up and maybe look in the mirror and think "oh I look fat today" or "my hair isn't right" or I dont like this or that about myself but as long as you say to yourself , "you know what that is fine I am allowed to have flaws and I am made to not be perfect but I still love myself" that is all that matters!



I'm not really too sure where I am going with this I think I have rambled on for so long and I'm not really good at getting to the point. But I just want each and everyone of you to know that you are beautiful. Even if people bully you and say nasty things they are probably going through the same things as well and they also have their own insecurities and maybe their way of dealing with it is making other people feel small and worthless. but do not let it get to you and do not listen to them! And dont think you are worthless just because you may not look exactly how society says you should look, because that is not realistic. Everyone in this world is perfect just the way they are are, yes you are too! Especially you ♥



And please never ever harm yourself for whatever reason you're beautiful and you should not be cutting yourself and harming yourself you should love and care for your body. This is the only body we are going to have throughout our lives and we should care for it, respect it, look after it and love it!



I'm sorry that this has been long and possibly boring to some people it just upsets me because I know there are people out their that hate themselves so much and feel the same way I have felt throughout my life. But I really just want you to know that you are beautiful even if you might not think you are right now, I promise you things get better, I have been to hell and back I have been through so much shit but I am here and I am still surviving and recovering and I have learned to love myself which is something i never thought I would do.
When I was younger if someone was to say to me you will love yourself one day and you will appreciate the way you look and not compare yourself to others and just love yourself the way you are, I would say yeh right! But it has happened and if I can do it then so can you! So I promise you things will get better. You are beautiful, amazing and I love you even if you dont love yourself at the minute.



I hope you take something away from this post and I really hope this helps even just one person. Please smile and be happy and love yourself, things do get better and I know I have said it a million times but you are ALL BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING!!!!



I love you all! And I am always here if you need someone to talk to ♥


Thankyou so much for reading,
I hope you all have an amazing day!
Stay happy and stay positive
and I love you all ♥♥



Love Megan Rose ♥